Ninja's here, I'll do the others in a bit.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:The Rock Star wrote: I like deep, thought-provoking questions. Silly ones are fun, too, but IDEALLY I like deep, non-religious ones... Worldview, past, present, emotions, THE DEPTH OF LIFE. I only mind questions like name and job. Feel free to ask anything personal or nosy or rude or shocking. I like it interesting.
Oh dear!!! I would never ask overly personal/nosy/rude questions! (Besides those usual get you banned and I'm trying to stay on the admins good side for now.)
*blink* Did you just edit my name to "The Rock Star"?
And you can ask anything you want, that's the point!
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What do you mean by "Child Welfare"??? How would it help society???
I mean for kids who are in abusive situations.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:Was the Fireman Hot???
Yes and no. If you saw him on the street you wouldn't think so. But a fireman's uniform does things to me...
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:Why do you think there is this like "stigma" against hanging out with teenages when you are a young 20-30 yr old single???
I don't think it's a stigma, and usually age doesn't bother me, but I guess I'm usually the younger one in those situations. It's a bit amusing being the older one. I suppose I just wonder if it's APPROPRIATE.

Oh and who says I'm single?
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:Who were you in high school? (The nerd, geek, cheerleader, artist etc.)
I was homeschooled all the way through, so I didn't fill any of those roles. Except you know, the lame homeschool kid.

At the high school age, let's see... I was very, very shy and completely inexperienced in the world. My parents wouldn't allow us to go to youth group so I literally had zero friends. We lived in a mountain neighborhood but there was only one person my age around and he was a guy and usually never home so there was nothing there. I dressed in jeans and any kind of shirt that I felt covered me up well enough. I had long since rebelled against the jumpers and dresses my parents forced on me when I was little. I spent the vast majority of my time reading books and listening to CCM. I had limited time allowed on the computer but I spent that fervently talking to friends on message boards and IM. I started getting into photography, and actually enjoyed hiking for the only time in my life, during that period. I didn't wear any make-up, didn't understand dirty jokes, loved going snowboarding, and had no interest whatsoever in driving. I hated my body, I hated myself. My parents' marriage began to break down and I was the built-in counselor for my mom. I became extremely distanced and eventually hateful towards my dad. I was fast and efficient at school. My brother and I were always on about the same level, he's four and a half years older than me. I was pretty respectful during my teens...I think I got my rebellious stage worked out when I was like six through ten, ha. Everyone thought me and my brother were just the sweetest, best-behaved teens. Old women told me never to change. Middle-aged men hit on the all the time. I believed in courtship instead of dating, but never did either. Bit hard when you aren't allowed to socialize anywhere. Basically I was just very suppressed, quiet, shy, introverted, and desperately lonely. But thankfully, I didn't really understand how bad it was, at the time.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:When was the last time this thought ran through your mind "Oh man... That's something my mother would have done!! Am I starting to act like her now...?"

What was it you had done???
Hm, I don't have any cute examples, I'm afraid. The one that pops to mind is rather negative. Sometimes I wonder if I am a black hole like she is. If I just pour out a neverending fountain of pain and negativity that there is no shut-off valve to, until people can't handle the pressure anymore and start to resent me. I worry that I am selfish, and far too needy.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What was your favorite childhood snack?
Grape flavored Fruit Snacks! From Sam's! Oh my gosh. I absolutely love grape stuff.

They don't sell them anymore. SOOOOO SADDDD.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What is your favorite Christmas memory?
Any and every time we turned off the lights and saw the tree all done up for the first time, was fantastic. The Christmas tree is definitely one of my MOST favorite things about Christmas. I adore Christmas treeeeees.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What do you do in your free time? What do you do in your not so free time?
I'm on the computer a TON. Talking to people, browsing the internet, writing (I hate hand-writing my thoughts), researching things, listening to music, going through my latest pictures. I also love movies, but I tend to watch them in little 20-minute spurts and do other things in between. I love organizing. I can organize and re-organize all day. I haven't done it as much due to depression, but I do love driving alone in my car with my camera and my CD's. Taking six hours to get somewhere an hour away. HAVING ONE OF THOSE ADVENTURES LIKE LATCH. The last place I went was up into the mountains, I visited a lake, a tiny mountain town, a restaurant with an awesome array of macaroni and cheese dishes, and a mountainside cemetery. I actually spent a lot of time at the last one, taking pictures of moss and leaves and fake and real flowers, and the tombstones. I like cemeteries, they seem incredibly peaceful to me. BUT ANYWAY... I have a weakness for shopping, both online and in stores, but I've been doing an awesome job of curbing that lately. Money is pilin' up, yo!

I love making lists and schedules and anything that I can tweak the living daylights out of until it's perfect. I love taking pictures of the sunset...I have been doing it every day for almost two years now, only missed a handful of days.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What's your favorite quote?
I have a lot. *peruses file* For now, let's go with, "And God said, 'Let there be light!' and Chuck Norris said, 'Okay.'"
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:If you could change one thing in your past what would it be?
Well, MY past? I mean I would say my foster sister's death. But if it literally has to be MY past... I would take back some pictures I sent to an ex several years ago.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What's one moment you would relive in a heart beat?
Falling in love.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:Do you like heights?
Yes, I like the view from tall buildings, the way you feel like you're sort of swaying, and the thrill from looking straight down. Canyons are good, too. Planes. All that.

I don't enjoy hanging at the top of a roller coaster right before it drops you, but I do willingly go on the towers that drop you from a giant height, every time I'm in an amusement park. I scream my head off in sheer terror.

But I go.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:When was the last time you were like "yes, I think that is love!"???
November.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:Do you know Tim personally? (If so... how many eyeballs does he have?)
Tim has an endless supply of eyeballs to roll back and forth with people. Some are glass. SOME AREN'T. Anyway, how personally are we talking here, lady?

Ahem, that is, yes, but we don't really communicate very often. I think my vibrant sexuality scared him.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:Why did you say I should have no children?
I feel about kids how I feel about kittens. There are countless unwanted ones who need love and are receiving abuse instead. Don't create another one...save one.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:Do you still listen to AIO?
I was obsessed with it as a kid. Since my teens, I go years without and then I go through cycles where I will go through an entire case in a day or two. But it's been a long time since I did that, the cassettes (yes, that's what I said) are out in the garage. =(
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:How do you handle the death of a loved one?
It depends entirely on how close I feel to them. I have lost my unborn sister, my foster sister, my second cousin, my cousin, my grandparents, and my great aunts and uncles. I was only four when my sister was stillborn, but I remember the funeral, and just feeling very sad, and especially sad for my parents. We had been making a little button collection for my baby sister, and counting down with beans until her due date. I just felt very sad. It took many many, many years to really process grief over it. I think when I realized that she would have turned 18 that year, it really hit me that I had lost someone who could have changed my life, and who I could have protected, and who I would have loved.
I felt mostly numb when my cousin overdosed. As sad as it is to say, it didn't surprise me. I felt brief sadness when my great aunts and uncles died. Losing my Grandpa was really hard, but I mostly managed to keep the tears in check while it was happening in the hospital. Once it was over, it was kind of over, though.
Losing my Grandma was completely different. It massively contributed to my depression, feeling hopeless, believing there is no point to life... I just can't describe it. She had lent me a stack of books not long before, and I just couldn't stop thinking about how I didn't have to give them back anymore. She was just gone, and it didn't matter. She had also recently opened up about some abuse when she was a teenager, and she cried about it... To realize that someone her age could still be in such pain over something from so many decades before, to know that she had NOT found healing, that she was NOT "fixed"...and then she died... Was just devastating. I miss my Grandma a lot and we just passed her birthday, and the day she passed away, a few weeks ago. I have accepted it and do much better now, but it really threw my depression into overdrive for several years.
My foster sister was murdered and there are no words to describe how that has impacted my life and my outlook on pretty much everything and everyone.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:Do you still enjoy reading and writing?
I do, but I don't do either nearly as much as I used to.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What do you want the future to be like?
Happy. But I rather doubt it ever will be.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What is something you are thankful to have learned the hard way?
Learning something "the hard way" sounds like it would be something I would regret. If I think of something, I'll let you know.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What advice would you give your 16 year old self?
You don't have to be your mom's mother, or her husband, or her friend, or her counselor. You have the right to simply be her daughter.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:How have you changed since you were 16?
Oi. This is gonna be a long-

post. Since I kind of described my sixteenish-year-old self, I guess I can lay out how I'm different now... I'm still quiet, but not shy at all. I'm still introverted, but also love being a jokester, shocking people, telling dirty jokes, and even sometimes being the center of attention. I still don't really have real-life friends, and I think my upbringing pretty much screwed me up for life in that regard, but I'm totally comfortable around people and being friendly and chillax. I'm still a jeans girl, still don't wear make-up, still fervently talk to friends online...still hate my body, still don't talk to my dad, and am still respectful. I have long-since decided courtship is a joke, but I don't think casual dating is the way, either. I am definitely not suppressed anymore.

I'm indescribably more self-aware than I was back then. I'm no longer afraid of my own emotions. I'm not afraid to be real anymore, to let people know when I'm not perfectly happy, to let them know that I can bleed. I'm more independent. Obviously I no longer believe in God. My feelings about relationships and marriage are utterly different. I was depressed when I was sixteen, but I had no idea why. Now I know why. I also enjoy driving now, I like going and doing things alone, I'll go to movies alone, go driving alone, whatever. Then there are other things that come with age and LOOSE MORALITY, like having tried alcohol and cigarettes. I have gone through the "I'm too old for Disney movies" stage, and then cycled back into "Oh my God I love Disney movies!!!" I've discovered so much about myself as a person. I understand myself and the world around me a lot better, even if I don't see either of them very positively.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What is your opinion on candy canes?
I don't like traditional peppermint much at all. I love the special flavors they've been having the last few years, like candy that is made into that shape. Anything fruity or citrusy. And butterscotch.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:Do you like long lists of questions?
I hate it, can't you tell? I never know what to say. Clearly I'm related to Blitz, all these one-word answers.
NinjaThrowingStar wrote:What's a question you thought someone would have asked by now?
Dating/sexual questions, I suppose. Why I don't mind being taken as a guy. (Obviously anyone who READS this stuff is gonna know I'm a chick, but on the surface...) Why I'm hanging out on a Christian board when I'm so clearly not a Christian anymore. And the ever-present wonderment...just how awesome ARE you, Dom? I wish I could answer, but that pesky God of yours hasn't thought up a fitting adjective yet.
Dom