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[Samantha14]

She watches;
Others are
talking
laughing
hugging
enjoying
She is
alone
again
wishing
she knew
what made her
different
from the rest.
She watches;
Others are
socializing
complimenting
loving
accepting
only their own
because
she is
alone
insecure
doubtful
depressed
trying
failing
She watches;
Others are
smiling
texting
talking
walking
together
She is
alone
listening
wondering
what is it like?
she wouldn't know.
She watches;
others
see her
or don't
because
she is
invisible
because she is
or because they
cause her
to be
She watches;
others
stand
right
in front
of her
but she is
afraid
awkward
insecure
and
alone
She watches;
others
notice
the world
they know
not the world
outside of
their own
and she is
tired
of trying
to look in
while being
alone
She watches;
others
perfection
in a
perfect
world
she isn't
but she tries
because maybe
they might notice
the effort
it takes
just to breathe
She watches;
other
cliques
and models
and finances
and lives
she could
never
afford.
She is
breathing
barely
speaking
quietly
and ignored.
She watches;
others are
fake
heartless
cold
mechanical
empty
yet she
wishes
she were too
because
then it wouldn't
hurt
so
bad
when
she is
alone.

[Ameraka]

Wow. This is beautiful. And sad. And true.
I have sometimes felt like this. Mostly I don't want to be fake, don't want to be like the others, and am fine with being alone. I need my own space. But sometimes I wish I didn't have feelings. And that I will always be Outside. And wish people would like me for who I am rather than having to turn into something else.

[Ashley]

Thank you for putting my life into words.

[NinjaThrowingStar]

Oh! My! Word! I can't express how personal this is to me. I've been there so many times! Thank you so much for sharing. Dude you are a brave! Beautiful! And amazingly talented!!! This is so honest and refreshing. Yet I felt the pain and joys of being alone. In that weird way we love pain so we are no longer numb... *sigh* it's perfect.

[Blitz]

That was really good Sammy!

[HomeschoolCowgirl]

Beautiful, Sam!

[Novatom]

I cried while reading that. Great job!